I write about motivation but am often the least motivated person on the planet

But in my defense, eventually I get things done on deadline. Have you ever dropped a glass on a tile floor? It somehow creates a debris field five miles in diameter and takes four hours to clean up. Grab a pair of walking shoes and head out the door. But if you tried that and…
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Svetlana:
How do I get over the guilt and shame that comes with Christmas?
(2 December 2016)

Svetlana:
How can I enjoy it even if they decline a visit?
(2 December 2016)

Svetlana:
It is about 50-50. How can I get over this guilt and shame here at Christmas?
(2 December 2016)

Svetlana:
I feel so much anticipatory shame thinking about how it will feel if they decline like last year.
(2 December 2016)

Svetlana:
As an adult I reach out and some years people reciprocate and accept a visit, other years they decline.
(2 December 2016)

Svetlana:
Growing up I was not allowed around extended family because my mother holds grudges.
(2 December 2016)

Juliane:
She could have gone to sleep but she usually tells me that and says goodnight to me.
(2 December 2016)

Juliane:
Then at like 11:15 she just doesn't respond.
(2 December 2016)

Juliane:
At like 10 I tried texting her again and then she responded quickly and was laughing at my texts and stuff like she usually does.
(2 December 2016)

Juliane:
Yesterday I texted her at like 4 and she responded once before leaving me on read.
(2 December 2016)